For runners

 The brand has a different shoe 

I read the shoe card that was in the box 

Kinda funny

 Because I have to relearn to walk 

If

 I could run in the shoes 

And I had

 The nerve to ask him 

I made it back to

 The store just in time to thank the guy who helped me with the shoes before they left the block which he shared with me at that time 

Without using

 Put alot of stress on me that I didn't realize or didn't want to take 50,000 hours trying to put on a pair of shoes 

Or

 Use my walking stick 

My

 Ankle sleeves which irritated really bad 

I hadn't been

 Putting in my arch supports 

I

 Was in pain for three days 

After I wore my

 Orthopedic gym shoes for the first time 

It took me a minute

 To get back to shoe store to tell the guy thank you and ask a couple questions 

Is getting

 Better medical treatment than me 

Christa Pike

 The lady on death row that yall tried to kill 

You have won

 You have beat me down 

Who ever is

 Responsible who ever is involved 

My life finances all my life

 Attached and destroyed 

It's already hurt me

 I can't be an election inspector 

Why

 Are so many people attacking me 

But why this level

 Of attack

We can or not

 Talk about shoes 

But they look

 Like gym shoes 

My belated birthday present

 Was a pair of orthopedic shoes 

I just got me

 A late birthday present 

Again I couldn't afford

 The arch support and  no insurance but I did try them 

I guess he was saying

 Wear them and take them out so your body could adjust 

So at the good foot

 Store good feet whatever it is called the sales person was like when you wear the arches in your shoes you wear them for a couple of hours and take them out 

Although I didn't

 Leave there with the arches or shoes I did try them the arches and a pair of shoes that were to big and to wide 

I have been there

 Twice 

I have been

 To the good feet place the place with the arch support 

What would you pay

 For the ability to stand and walk 

The

 Ability to stand with disabilities 

Its like trying to focus

 On one needle 

I got a haystack of

 Problems 

 

The part that was on the inside

 Is stuck in the washing machine 

And when my houseshoes

 Fell apart i used the ankle part 

Took my leg warmers

 And made some sleeves 

I wore

 The vest inside out for so long I made it permanent 

 

I should clean

 The baseboards The uh whicha call it 

 

 

I think you should look

 For the next person to scam cheat and steal from 

You can lie cheat and scam me to death

 Or the mass/needle in my arm can collapse my veins 

My veins has made room for the mass in my arm

 

This is not me

 I've never been there 

Police

 Somebody needs help 

And if I do

 It want matter It want got counted 

Another year

 Where I don't get to vote 

 

 

 

 

 

And the writer gave examples

 From the elders the first believers 

But something seen

 With spiritual eyes 

He the writer gave us a description of what that means

 Something you can't see with natural eyes 

Which is

 The substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen 

Is saying now

 I'm about to give you the definition of faith 

Going against everything I know

 The word now is definition number 7

The writer it says at the end of the chapter 

The now

 At the beginning of chapter 11 is definition number 7

 

 

 

 

 

You better come and have a talk

 Wit him because he won't be doing it all day 

Ed

 If Ricardo is the person upstairs because that's what you said the last person was that was up above my head 

 

 

Than the person who

 Committed murder yesterday 

Would render a person more time

 In prison 

The crime that's going on

 Here 

Right

 Here 

It's a fuckin problem

 And if I go up there it will be a bigger muthafuckin problem 

Yall betta do something

 About the bitch stomping over my head 

You get to see your daughter

 And grandkids nice 

She kinda

 Look like you 

Ed

 Is that one girl that lives upstairs your daughter 

Not even the fan

 On the ac unit works 

No ac

 And I can't open the windows because of bugs flying in 

Is he second

 To criminals 

Is there a

 GOD 

Is

 God still in charge 

Good time

 To live a life of crime 

Privileged

 Criminals 

It is obvious

 The criminals have more rights than me 

You better figure out

 Your problem bitch 

What ever the fuck your problem is

 You better figure it the fuck out 

No bitch you will not be

 Stomping over my head 

I hope the plumbing emergency

 Is fixed downstairs 

And your emergency

 Is not my emergency 

Really strange

 I was in my mind for a minute thinking was he waiting there for me did he know I was coming to the bank 

So yesterday

 I was at the bank and a guy was there pacing back and forth I don't know how long he was there but when I left he left 

The person above me

 Pacing back and forth but foggy like a bear waking up from hibernation 

Kinda like

 The man I saw pacing back and forth outside the bank when I was there the other day 

Until a couple days back

 Making alot of noise 

The person upstairs

 Been quiet 

Or was it the

 Sox of mine that you were wearing and I threw them away 

Did I throw away the

 Panties of mine that you were wearing 

The criminals are mad

 Because I won't leave so they can come in

Long enough for you

 To come in and take a shower 

How long does it take

 Me to walk to the dollar store 

Because I'm

 Here 

Water wasn't a problem

 Until you couldn't come in and take yo shower 

And get away with it all day everyday

 Is amazing 

But you can come knock on this door

 With this stupid ignorant bullshit 

Outside

 In the parking lot 

Harassing me 

Above my head

 On the other side of the kitchen wall 

Behind the bathroom wall 

In a whole other apartment 

Below my feet 

Harassing me 

Does that happen later

 Oh I don't have a car not my problem 

Or is that

 Tomorrow 

Did the parking lot

 Get resurfed or whatever 

That's being committed here

 Every Day 

Address

 This crime 

Address the real issues

 Fuck the dumb shit 

Stop the criminal

 Activity bitches 

Its not your business

 If I take a shower 

It's not your business

 How much water i use in the bathtub 

How do you take a bath

 How do you take a shower 

Stomping going on over my head

 And this is the stupid shit 

You rat bitches better get

 Yall stupid ass shit together I'm sick of dumb ass stupid nigga shit 

And it broke

 When the ac operater left 

Don't send the plumber

 The AC Is broken 

I don't have a car

 

 

 

 

As a black person

 I really wasn't taught that that about wearing suntan lotion 

I guess I should where suntan lotion

 But you know 

I hate when

 My suntan fades 

We both wish

 Are skin were darker 

And I had a conversation

 With another light skin person 

And we have

 Lots of different colors 

I mix colors

 Together 

And if we don't have the right color

 

If the colors isn't in that container

 

Some colors are not in this container

 

I know that I have

 Used some 

I can't say for sure if I

 Have used all the colors in the container 

I just

 Went on coloring 

Asking myself

 Was the container of crayons racist 

Nobody was around

 For me to comment to 

Why the crayons

 Had to be called that 

Now in my mind

 I thought to myself 

 

Had them

 For a while now but I was surprised 

A little taken back when some of the colors 

Were called...wait for it 

Got a box of crayons

 Only they weren't in a box but a circle container 

 

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