So

 

Somebody will lose their

 Benefits 

Because two people with disabilities

 Can not live together and both receive disability benefits 

Did you know

Well if I fell in love with a man with a disability Well that's not allowed 

To the sangers

 

Chapter 41 and Chapter 42

 The singers and the children of the porters

I'm in Ezra

 

 

 

Proud as a peacock

 

Story television

 Uh McDonald's oh fast foods

 

 

And now ma'am sir I have them

 And will do my best to take care of them 

Scratch the

 Floor 

As well as steal

 A little rip here tear there a little hole in the wall pin hole in the mirror 

They come in an tamper

 With things 

 

Come

 When I'm here bitch 

That don't make you no man

 Bitch cause you steal from me when I'm not here that makes you a hoe 

I'm sure it's a weak ass

 Man 

Fuckin bitch

 

Weak ass

 Bitch 

It a be

 A whole new story 

Come in this bitch

 When I'm here 

You can steal from me all day

 When I'm not here 

Well

 Idk

Onesimus

 

The Epistle to Philemon is about an escaped slave

 

We talked about hair locks

 About plantation 

Back to chapter 17 vs 7

 The end of verse 7 pl pl plantation 

Is this my Bible

 That says this 

Chapter 18 vs 3

 He put them in check 

Nicely 

Chapter 17 vs 3

 I've heard of Lebanon 

Before I continue reading

 

 

Tis

 Tis tis

Dig

 A whole in the wall

Jealousy

 Jealousy 

A lock of

 Hair 

God said what

 

We grow up with the

 Jim Jones the  Warren Jessup and the branch davidian 

Oh made from scratch

 

 

 

Write yo

 Own story

Fuck yall

 And the book 

Pay me

 For my information 

Fill it from the

 Blog 

Fill it in

 The best way you can 

We can sum up mom's

 Story in a few words

The zoo is missing

 An ape and a gorilla 

Brandon

 They need you back at the zoo

Brandon

 You fat black bitch 

My food that I just got

 Missing 

Rat

 Bitch 

Along with all the other

 Things you stole out of here 

I can't go anywhere

 Without being ripped the fuck off

Im sick

 Because of it

I'm sick

 Of it 

Something I made from trash

 Stolen right out of hear 

Stop stealing from

 Me it's not ok

I would be wrong

 If I went back to demand my change 

I have no

 Change and I specifically asked for my change 

He didn't give me my

 Change 

The book about my story

 It really means alot to me so excuse me while I put my little heart 💕 back in my chest 

It took the clerk to remind me

 Those kids cigarettes were made of chalk candy 

We had a good laugh 

I

 Was at the gas station at the check out and I saw a pack of cigarettes that reminded me of the cigarettes they had for kids back in the day 

Thanks

 

April 5th 0030

 

Or

 Somebody likes playing with bugs 

Either

 Something is dead behind my bathroom mirror 

 

Maybe they have a phobia

 That prevents them from going outside 

And someone is in

 The apartment above me 

Let's call it

 That 

What ever the fuck

 Thing is 

I saw the movie the

 Blob 

And I want to

 Vote legally 

I want to

 Vote 

What do you call it

 Today 

Old racist

 Theft,benefits disappearing , lying out right lies, fraud 

I'm literally shocked

 About what this Bible says 

I'm mixed between

 Generations 

 

Thank you for

 Stopping the bus 

There's only

 One or two things that can happen 

Three minutes to get to the dance floor

 

Any takers

 Any volunteers 

I don't think any man could handle labor pain

 

Let me add

 Motherfucker

Yep

 

I would hate to think of you

 As a ambulance chaser 

Un un

 Is it supposed to be funny 

Story television

 This story is about the Harlem globetrotters right 

It's not me slamming cabinets today

 It's the person above me 

Some of my rocks might have names

 

I didn't know who

 To call To cancel that ride 

Saturday I get a message

 From the ride service saying they would send an Uber  

So the doctor called Friday

 To reschedule but I had to cancel because I wasn't gonna be able to change the ride time 

My i00 ride

 With motive  care which is probably a made up name because you told me a different name at first 

No ride 

No care 

And God only knows who that man was 

Trifling

 Very 

Who paid

 For this ride 

My ride

 Was one way 

The ride service

 Arranged a Uber for me to my doctors appointment 

Did the truck have a

 Sign saying Uber 

I'm gonna need a rock polishing kit

 

Ump

 

By his stripes

 With his stripes yeah no over it 

I won't

 Be reading the Bible any more 

And been in church

 All my life 

It's really sad that I got

 Thru the whole book of Isaiah before I recognized any of the scripture 

If you a fan of

 Tomatoes 

Has really

 Good tomatoes 

And I know

 Wealthy market 

Yeah

 I think I should be upset from time to time 

Now I gotta walk downtown

 To another store 

The family dollar

 Doesn't open until 8 the i walked to the dollar general Madison cherry which is supposed to open at 7 not open she comes to door talking about she the only person in the store so can't open 

And your a

 Criminal 

Mean time

 Yeah they called a little while ago and basically canceled the appointment 

What could I do to

 Make you happy?

You fill in the blank

Would it make you feel better

 If I 

FRAUD

 FRAUD

Stranded

 At the bus stop 

To be refused

 The medical help you need 

So to have a man

 That weighs 300 pounds himself plus his vehicle trying to run you down you let me know what that feels like 

When I do get outside

 You don't know what a struggle for me 

But I

 Get up every day 

And the paper I got from the doctor

 Said the "mass" on my arm is getting bigger 

I expect

 To much 

But from what I'm being told

 This is normal 

The insurance company

 Gave me another place to call and yeah blah blah blah 

Well I called the insurance company

 Again 

In the meantime

 I get a call from the resident doctors 221 Michigan st

She recommends

 No one but my insurance company says that there is a specialist in the same office 

Instead of my doctor

 Recommending the hand specialist in her office building 

I need to see basically

 A  hand surgeon 

And it's not like

 I can do anything 

With out

 Explanation 

So yeah that guy

 Trying to run me over very unnerving 

So if you see me

 Walking 

After I got across the street

 To catch the other bus i damage near had to jump in front of it to get it to stop 

I'm know different

 Than nobody else being treated like shit every day 

So after that guy tried to run me over

 I went to his normal hang out spot for him to do what the fuck ever 

That's the second time

 I was left at a bus stop stranded 

So now I have to

 Cross this busy street to catch it going the other way 

Today

 I was standing at the bus stop and the bus passed me by 

I weigh

 Less than 100 pounds 60 years old with Hella health issues 

This person

 Weighs about 300 pounds 

The person gets out

 Of his vehicle calling me bitches telling me he will fuck me up for hitting his truck 

I barely had time to move out the way

 And my reaction was to hit the truck with my walking stick 

As he swerved around

 The corner and gunning his truck in my direction 

Normal thing happened to me yesterday

 A guy tried to run me over 

Appear to be

 Shatter 

Your

 Windows

Is

 Already taken 

Oh

 Because the 55 stabbed murder trial 

It will be the

 56 stabbed times murder trial 

Is that

 Year 0023

The

 Three and twentieth year 

In

 Reference to a year 

Something else stuck ou

 Looking for it before I read on

Un

 Un un

Houses

 Crooked 

The building's

 Are crooked 

Keep

 Cutting limbs 

Another one

 Right here oh

We will build a

 Hospital right here 

Were gonna keep

 Building  fuck 

We not in a man made

 Disaster 

Did you

 Do the Donald Trump to your own business 

I hate when I be on the bus

And Somebody starts talking loud on they phone 

So we can burn

 These muthafuckas up 

Somebody please let me know

 When the Bible burning day is 

You in the car

 Or blowing the horn for no reason 

What about the

 Train 

Ain't

 No  fires need to be put out 

Any body

 Need a ambulance 

Any

 Crime happening today 

Or the

 Bible 

Somebody lying

 Is it you 

Can't nobody

 Beleive it 

Can we burn

 The Bibles 

Your

 Girdle 

Can you come

 When I'm here 

You take that up

 With God 

Your problem is not with me

 You have a God problem 

I am not your problem

 But God is your problem 

So I didn't write the

 Bible 

That's in the

 Bible 

Many pastors

 Have done what 

Can you see it

 Can you picture this 

In

 My mind 

And put that with the girdle

 What a picture 

Now you take them there big wigs

 Men used to wear 

Sir

 Your girdle is showing 

How to know if he is wearing a girdle

 He will be on that weak shit 

Me

 Cause I am not a pastor 

But pity the

 Fool 

At least

 That's ny interpretation 

He knew since Adam

 Bit

Maybe God was saying

 You got weak balls and the girdle would help to strengthen them up 

Girdle up

 Your loins because 

I read it

 In the Bible 

Man you men

 Need to go back to wearing girdles

I don't feel like

 That fake  shit 

To be fucking

 Honest 

No leader's

 With the balls enough 

It's the pretending

 That this is normal 

Disaster

 And no help 

Left to

 Defend your self 

Everybody's

 Corrupt 

It's so corrupt

 That the people who you would 

Looks like according

 To  calendar and receipt i was at the mall on that day 

Crossing Ts

 Dotting I's

What does it look like from

 Your window 

Now the demon

 Bringing two of his demon friends 

And how deceitful

 Man is 

The potter's

 Clay

To

 Kiss it 

And soon

 I will be able to tell a bitch 

Growing an

 Ass 

We to the

 Potters wheels bitches 

That's like what

 God said about the leopard 

That was

 Whole last week 

Ima leave it

 At that 

They say

 Sugar is shit anyway 

All I remember me saying

 Was I don't know I just was like 

I'm in pain

 I don't know what the fuck he was saying about sugar 

I don't know

 He brought up sugar 

He

 Started talking about nothing 

I was in so much pain

 I sat down in the grass like next to a guy 

When I was leaving

 And went to the kentwood bus station 

My last mall trip

According to the receipt Thursday 

And you

 Turned away 

From your

 Office window 

How many crimes

 Have you seen 

And I thought the medical community

 Took a oath 

I will die

 With it in my arm 

Short of the needle

 Popping itself out 

I've already been on the phone

 For 28 minutes 

Im on hold

 Trying to arrange my first ride 

Maybe I

 Can get a ride 

I can't get 50

 All to the doctor 

I guess I betta

 Get some real sugar 

I was using the sugar

 For a facial scrub 

We to show

 And tell 

Because I didn't want to cuss

 You out in front of your own kind 

I got off the bus

 Bitch 

Was about to start talking to

 Me crazy and I had to get off the bus 

That white man was on

 The silver line 

Back to your

 Fuckin country bitch 

Take you and

 Your shitty sugar 

Are here in this country

 With they bullshit

Who treat women like

 Shit 

But now other muthafuckers

 From other countries 

With

 Weak black men 

With

 Racist police 

That I have to put

 With these white racist men 

It's

 Bad enough 

They put them insoles

 In and sent me on my way 

And pulled over

 To make a pit stop to get the tires changed 

I thought I was at

 The Indianapolis 500 bitch 

They got me together

 Real quick 

Those two people

 Were so nice 

Can I pick

 My own poison 

Can't always use

 The walking stick 

But I did get a new pair

 Of custom made insoles for my shoes 

I didn't get no

 Work boots 

They were work boots

 Nicely made 

In my mind I was thinking

 Did these two people make all these shoes 

A place full of shoes

 And two people 

One of my trips I decided

 To walk in to the shoe place 

In front of the place

 Where the sign says they make shoes 

I was on a side of town

 And got off the bus where the bus stop is 

And God

 Is gangsta 

And in God's

 Mind 

God is speaking to Jeremiah

 God is speaking about Moses and Samuel too Jeremiah 

Looking like

 Fraud 

Walk up to the demon

 On guard 

The best 37$

 Refund never spent bitches 

I thought that that

 Was just a saying that people say because it sounds catchy 

I been

 Around 

They have drank urine

 And ate flesh 

Not to offend God

 But in this Bible 

But I might be

 Reading out of order 

I read the book of the

 Prophet Isaiah 

The old testament

 Pages looks like they haven't been read as much 

So in my Bible

 The new testament has been read more 

Well Lord

 I myself am shocked and amazed at the same shit 

Astonishment

 1 great surprise or amazement 

2 a cause of amazement; a marvel 

God was astonished

 And said in chapter 21 I am black 

Referring to him self not talking about the color of his skin 

The astonishment

 Of God 

Now run

 And tell that 

And you

....bitch at that 

It's a good thing

... bitch 

Story television

 Life after people 

Bad moment

 But thank you 

Thank you

 Lord 

My decorum

 Is kinda cheesy

Correction

 I can't get the medical attention I need to save my life 

Who you gonna

 Call

No wonder the guy was

 Able to feel my ass and get away with it 

Looks good

 On paper 

That act you passed

 Means nothing in real life 

Let's meet

 Because maybe you know how I feel 

And if anyone has this

 This document 

Than any picture

 You got on tv

Well

 Not a good idea 

Since that might look

 Funny to you 

Because I can't really put it into words

 My response Might be to put a big ass maxi pad

Now if the creepy stalkers

 Know how to break into devices 

Maybe I should feel safe

 If they knock on the kitchen wall 

If mothafuckas

 Knock on your wall in your bathroom 

If

 You had stalkers bitch 

Would you be a little

 Paranoid 

What measures would you go thru

 To protect your privacy 

If you don't know how

 The stalker spy's on 

A victim

 Of all three things 

I must be

 Or have been 

In order for me to have a document

 From the justice department pertaining to violence domestic violence and stalking 

And since I can't get a date

 To save my life 

To help

 You stand up straight 

Yeah

 The say it's good for the back 

Nice

 Ima get one of those 

I just saw the advertisement

 For the tall cane about height of my walking stick with the adjustable handle 

When I took the document to the court house

 Nobody could tell me anything about it nor was I able to find out about this car city case as to why a decision hasn't been made 

This document exist

 Because I have it 

No explanation

 Needed 

Is it still

 Effective 

Made it's too me

 From the the department of Justice 

Nobody owes me anything

 Not even a explanation 

Because it's so easy

 For you to take from me 

In my mind I must be

 Indian 

I left a note for the thief

 And he got a attitude when he read it 

I don't

 Journal and more 

And the rest is

 Did you ID me on the block yesterday 

I think he broke in

 And read it 

I wrote my thoughts down

 Yesterday on a piece of paper about the toilet paper thief 

You have invaded

 Their privacy 

So if you read someone else's

 Journal 

A journal is a person's private

 Thoughts 

Read

 My journal 

That is

 Until I realized that the people I lived with 

I journaled for years

 I use to love Journaling 

I

 Can't do both 

Help Lord

 You fight my battles so I can battle this pain 

LORD

 I cannot fight this pain and people 

You

 Have a twin 

Where did the time go

 Whose keeping track 

Take a hour here

 Take a hour there 

Take a little here

 Take a day there 

The guitars

 Were beautiful 

Then she

 Just walked out 

Walked in that bitch

 Like she was casing it 

Then the other

 Lady 

I was in a one bank

 And a woman walked in and asked if they had a bathroom 

Some normal shit

 Happened 

Well then

 I think it's ok

Well Lord

 If you don't see anything wrong with this picture 

She

 Won't miss it 

One potato

 Two potatoes 

A little here

 A little there 

Then its okay for you

 To steal my toilet paper 

So if the government steals from me

 Stealing is dummied down 

From me

 Or the store 

Neighbor

 Where you get your toilet paper 

A little here a little there

From the top nobody care it won't be missed 

Dummy down Dummy down

 Dummy down 

And the trauma

 Is normalized 

In one day

 PTSD

3 people he knew died

 Traumatized 

And the man said

 He watched as one of died 

Where he shared with me

 3 people died

It was a normal

 Conversation 

That day

 From drugs 

I say about a week an a half

 A  man told me people he knew had died 

Who

 Really gives a fuck 

A child died

 But we would rather 

Its ok

 It is OK 

Like its normal

 To abuse children nobody knew you had 

Oh kk

 I got it 

But it is okay for you

 To sit on the corner smoking Crack and talk to yourself 

It's not normal

 For me to have a walking stick 

So I'm not trying to

 Offend anyone 

I

 Am hopeless like a penny with a whole in it 

I heard baby died

 Of child abuse on the news and the neighbors said they didn't even know she had kids 

And just for the record bitch

 I don't need a stick a cane or a walker to bust you in yo head 

Or you came up with that stupid shit

 On your own 

Did somebody pay you to stand there

 And make that dumb ass comment 

Lost and found

 OMG I love it 

Clothing and accessories

 Story Television 

It certainly is

 A lot of them 

For being my

 Self 

Shame on you

 For trying to shame me 

Thanks for

 Stressing me out 

I was fine today

 Until I checked my message

FUCK YOU

 AND YOU 

YOU CAN CALL ME AND

 TELL ME WHAT THIS NEW TEST IS FOR ALONG WITH THE RESULTS OF MY LAST TEST 

FUCK YOUR NEW

TEST 

WHEN YOU HAVEN'T

 TOLD ME THE GOD DAM RESULTS OF THE LAST TEST 

YOU CAN NOT FUCKIN

 CALL ME ABOUT A NEW FUCKIN TEST 

THIS IS WHATS

 WRONG 

Is it at a museum

 So we can see it 

Is the Jim Crow plaque

 Stored somewhere because it used to be right at the banks entrance 

So I could see

 Where this appointment is 

I had to ride the bus

 All the way to the Veterans Home and back 

Well

 Because I have an appointment on the medical mile 

Well now the

 Art work at central station 

I'm look for the artist name

 Next time I'm that way 

I'm at the bus station alot

 And I just saw that for the first time yesterday 

They just found some

 Dinosaur bones 

The story television channel

 Not making it better 

Can I be a part of the

 Dig

Excavators

 Ima put on my paleontology pants 

Get that

 Oil outta the 

Bitch

 You thieving too

No I didn't

 Drop anything 

Shout out to

 DJ Cassidy 

Part

 Indian 

We

 Got thru it 

At

 Another location 

Was

 What it was 

The

 Eye glass exam 

Not

 Rayban

Not

 Prada 

Not

 Gucci 

Once a

 Fan always a fan 

Who

 Would know 

I am a

 Elvis Presley fan

Yall

 Foul

Is it

 Elvis Presley 

Hello

 Hi

.....

 Musco Stella skeletal ortho gym 

I should

 Be at a gym 

To let you know

 If 

Then

 Well I didn't know how much pain I was really in

Of

 The gym 

Now had you told me

 I first would have wanted a tour 

I'm suspended from a gym

 That I didn't even know I was a member of 

My head aching

 From my eyes hurting 

My eyes have been

 So strained hurting 

I didn't want them to see

 Me crying 

I had to walk a different

 Way after picking up my glasses 

Thank you

 To the Family and Pediatrics Eyecare Center 

That was some real

 Crackhead shit 

They jokes

 Too

Well

 The State 

A cane

 One size fits all

My body was being

 Crushed in its center 

Maybe your

 Not acting 

Yall acting like

 Real bitches 

Modern marvel invention of

 Glue 

Recommending

 Shawshank redemption as a movie to watch this wknd 

Sanitary pads

 Comes to mind 

Could be you

 If you steal people's ideas and call it yours

And if you are wondering

 Who they are 

Am I watching TV

 Or is the TV watching me 

Where am I moving to

 This time 

And

 Where am I going 

Is it

 Trinity health 

Trinity hill

St Mary's 

I'm sorry for missing appointments

 I need answers 

I didn't go to the 3

 Options you gave me 

I want to use it toward

 My glasses 

I couldn't use my humana

 Spending allowance card toward my glasses cause 

Did he just sprint

 To the bus with that cane 

Money laundering

 Does that mean you wash the money 

Yeah you are the father

 But we know who his dad is 

How many children does

 The pastor have 

Where there is

 Smoke 

Is it a fire

 Somewhere in the building 

Child

 Support 

You

 Owe 

I didn't fuck her

 You did pastor 

You couldn't keep your dick

 In your pants 

Not my

 Problem 

I think that's his

 Moms name 

Pastor Parker

 You slept with patty 

Not

 My problem 

Uh

 Raised him as his son 

Darius

 My x 

Let's start

 There 

He

 Is your son 

It is

 What it is 

Sorry

 But 

Pastor Parker

 Is Darius father 

Had not been for them

 I probably would of come unglued 

Thank God for the

 Group of children on the bus 

Can we just skip thru

 A couple hours 

Ground hog

 Days 

Ching

 Ching 

Cause I be hearing them coins

 Falling 

But it must be a person

 Underneath wit a bucket 

The ATM

 Doesn't give out change 

You should be able

 To take what you dish out 

They fucked with me

 First 

Because I don't

 Just randomly talk about people 

A

 Conversation 

They highjackers

 They will high jack