i

Played two numbers today

Four digits 

thank you Lord

For the double rainbow this morning 

ok

Couch died

Marjorie would have a break down

And Mr Johnson adopted me

Gave me his last name 

ok stupid bitch

Are they paying you or you doing it for free 

Grace means

God's Divine Influence

Called so because it is derived from the free and undeserved communication of God toward an individual of his own choosing 

yeah

I'm wearing Dr Scholl's shoes with Dr scholl inserts with toe spacers until I get to one of them recommend stores 

y'all Betta cut that out

Like a cut out doll

Like a  cut out pattern

Stop playin 

and I got

3 new prescription 

you probably

Can't tell I have these issues just by looking at me

Huh 

O

But you can't see my stomach issues

My back pain

Or my collapsed feet

will take my

Time with them 15 pounds considering my stomach issues

so excuse me while

I'm hunting and gathering with my bad feet 

I lost

Everything I owned in a storage unit 

and if I'm

15 pounds under weight what do you think I'm gonna do

How do you think I'm suppose to put weight on 

we haven't

Gotten to the spine doctor yet 

and

We know they bad 

we gonna get

To the bunions 

okay well

The very shoes 👟 I was wearing to give me the support I needed may have been the very shoes 👟 that helped with the collapsing of my feet

Mephibosheth 

but

Any way that story made me think about shoes

now he says

In the book that he didn't know if that story was real 

now I got to

Go to the specialty shoe store 

I mean

Give away these $200 shoes 👟

sell

These name brand $200 shoes 

I

Mean 

why would you

Donate 

now let's replace

Those 📏📐 rulers and insert shoes 👟

do we destroy

These bad rulers or sell them to the discount store at a discounted price 

well now on the backside of that story

The manufacturer of the ruler 

when she called

The flaw to the attention of the teacher

The teacher told her next time tell her parents not to shop at the discounted store 

after this goes on

For some time a student notices a flaw in the ruler that came from the discount store 

now the kids take a

Test in school using their 📏📐 rulers and the kids whose parents got their 📏📐 rulers from discount store been failing several test 

the parents

Now have to get a ruler 📏 for the child

Some parents shop at discount store A

Some parents shop at not a discount store

Pay a little more for the ruler 📐

the story was about

A ruler that a student in middle school might need for an assignment 

so I was

Read a book and was telling someone one of the stories in the book

sorry

I have been walking

Down to the library because they have books for sell for .25 

a quarter

Twenty five cents 

now

Bare with me 

now I have been wearing a

Pair of shoes that I thought were good for my feet and walking name brand pair... expensive from what they tell me 

but we gonna get to them

But first we have to start with the collapsing of my feet inward and arches and the heels of my feet... physical therapy

For my feet 

well we

He really wasn't concerned about those 

finally made it to

The foot doctor today 

For the emergency room visit for the bunions 

I think

I came thru like 911 in white neighborhoods

Oh

that's not 8 months

Like the bottoms

in Sparta Mississippi in the Heat of the Night bottoms shit

I come from the

bottom

And God had to remind me of

where I'm from how where I grew up

I never

thought I would be at a homeless shelter But God has made a believer out of me

I

am gonna read the Bible right now My daily devotion it's still mornin

I started crying that day

on the street walking and felt like any thing could happen to me out in these streets and nobody would know

But I felt like

if I was the only person who saw that it made me feel so alone

It was something strange

it happened quick

And

saw something strange happen

To find someone or

something encouraging

So after I started working in the bakery

I spent a lot more time outside

I tried to say that

during the grand opening interview I did it come out that way

When I started working at the shelter

in the bakery and living there in the shelter was very hard for me

A low point

it was

A high point for

well what was encouraging to was to know that Levine Benjamin was fighting my case

It's hard not to give up

if you have been in that situation for a long period of time

But now realize

when someone has been unhoused for two years fours years or more it might not be unusual

I'm not pointing a finger

at anyone

Time

time time there is Gods time and there is the time by which we go by

Talking about this

helps me to get it out of my system because all of this is a part of what is inside of me making me sick

Firstly I blogged

about my time at the shelter so we just gonna keep it moving in interest of time

So I was at the

shelter for 8 months

And my response to

him was I had filed a claim against them with the Michigan Department of Civil Rights I mean you know that part

During the emails

with Jacques G the Housing commission came up as another resource

The "Homeless" system

which means in order to become recognized as a homeless person you you have to go through the shelters

Even though I knew

how long I have been homeless

So when I

was in the shelter I was told that I was not a chronically homeless person

I'm talking about

chronically over a period of time

Going back to the word

chronic and I'm not talking about weed

Between the time

he he told me and my arrival at the shelter was a bit delayed I made it there

And my first day at the shelter

was December 31st 2022 New Year's Eve

Well Jacques G

I took your advice

And I began to

have health challenges

Well instead of going to the shelter

at that time I tried to work a little harder

Now that was back on

5-6-2020

And I believe my

last email to him was yes those places that he recommended was fine if I wanted the corona virus

Well

chronic homeless HAP degage ministries mel trotter

These words came up

in the email

Yesterday

I saw back in 5-6-2020 six emails between me and a Jacques G

I stayed

in hotels I stayed with others I even asked my then Doctor at that time

After I left Charles Street

I tried everything I could to find another place to live

I'm short on words

so I'm just gonna say no secret I have been homeless since I left Charles street

So I log in to my chart to read

the letter but click on messages instead

Basically the test was fine

I have to basically stop smoking cigarettes

I recently had a test done

and my doctor put a letter in my chart in regards to the results

We

gonna back up

Ok

so yesterday I got the name wrong

Thank you Lord

for referring me back to my My old doctor's office. The history. OMG emails with Julius

Now I don't know what

that means other than the obvious because I know that that was the very reason I shut down the ancestry account down

Matter of fact

I saw someone who shares my biological fathers last name today

But I was

linked to people who have my biological father's last name

Until one day

I realized that although I had all the information the DNA was not matching although I was able to see other people that had family trees had the same people that I had on my tree

I was building a family tree

I was gathering information from the census Google located the house in Louisiana New Orleans and I was on a role

I never

had information about "my father's" so I put in what I thought I knew about my mother

I had took a DNA test

I put in my family tree

Ancestry

it was something about the bloodline that made me shut it down

And what was

crazier was to see the code it was something there

It seemed

kinda crazy to think to do something like that a magnifying glass

Was it just last

yearish I was looking at the birth certificate with a magnifying glass and found the adoption code in the border of the birth certificate

Before 2016

I had never saw my birth certificate

The middle phone

was the phone that was left on the bus I did locate It I blogged about I ended up throwing it away like a burner phone in a trash can because you said it wouldn't charge

Sometimes I choose

not to import export

Going back to 3

phones ago to the government phone to the device I have now well I still have the 3rd phone back

At what point did you decide

to sell your soul to the devil

Ain't that what

the girl called you in the meeting punk

You left

your scent behind punk

Those

are heavy hitters big wigs

The

federal trade commission

The

office of the controller

This situation

I don't know what else to do I don't know who else to call I don't know what else to say

I have

been crying for the better part of last night and today

OMG

O MY GOD O MY GOD LORD YOU OR BUST you checked me today in my daily devotional about my belief system 5 minutes after I said to someone that I was struggling with pretty much believing in God LORD I BELIEVE

Well

because of the adoption

Is

, Donald Trump behind this shit too

The

Federal trade commission

Somebody

know something

I'm sick of it

make it stop I'm tired

Fraud

please get to the bottom of it