we

Quiet 

I guess

poet justice works if that's all I can get

I KNOW

I finally get it I now know why you made my life a living hell and wished for me to die I know your cover-up your corruption your scandal I know how I was treated I know how I was mishandled I now know it's nothing I've done I know it's you you are the one I know your secrets I know how you lied I know what you did I know how you spied On me like I am a criminal I hope you get life or at least the minimal yeah I finally get it and I got you to

Y'all

treated me so bad... I'm writing a poem about it

And thanks

to the Judge for listening, hearing me, and acknowledging that I was heard.

Thank you

Levine Benjamin Lauren Cojei for winning my disability claim it meant alot to me knowing that you were fighting for me when I couldn't fight for myself

And

I thought it was Chris that everybody hated No Everybody hates Yvonne

Nov 16

2022 I posted about a paper I wrote at cornerstone in regards to ELNC PREP

ELNC PREP

I know a little bit about that

I

have appointments coming up New Doc Old Doc office rerouting

Well

since one of the side effects is death hopefully the ones that I do have gets better IDK

suffering

From side effects of medication

So now I'm in pain

Because I can't take the medicine 

in the

Vicinity of our conversation 

word on the street

There was another victim of the same fate 

and as the woman

Shared her story with me yesterday 

and

If that is the only language bitches

That you understand

Then let's take it there 

so

Y'all better figure it the fuck out 

to

Many more days like today

Ain't gonna be

nobody

Gives a fuck

Translation

Nobody cares

.

Bitch 

I have met

A lot of strong women out in these streets 

at that time I

Didn't understand but today I get it 

and her reason

For sleeping outside was because she was bullied in the shelter 

she asked me for a ride

I gave her a ride to a church where she slept outside on the steps of a church. 

I met a woman a while back

Name Janice and to make a long story short I couldn't tell it by looking at her she was homeless 

and that's

Ok to

I

Got nothing 

and as a

House warming departure gift

and I felt like

If I told you who helped me

You would go behind my back and try and undo that help 

and when I did get help

You yelled at me again demanding that I tell you who helped me 

none of it

Is funny 

cruel

Cruelty 

so yes

I can relate to her story 

I'm sure the woman

On the other end of the phone heard how you were yelling at me 

and when I called

That same place that I had already called and you told me to go from your office 

and when I told you that

I had already called you told me to go in person 

one place

I had already called 

you not only did not help

You told me to go to 3 other organizations and ask them for help 

and the day we sat down

And I thought I was going to receive help you not only did not help me you double down with a story about staff members and patrons said something about me being or doing what I'm still not clear 

you had an opportunity

To help me move out of the shelter

But you didn't help 

when you as my employer

Has emergency relief funds for your employees

Which I am one of at this moment

And I was told about this fund by the housing advocate 

I could relate

Her story on many levels I myself have been raped before in my life 

And to ask for help and have a closed door in the face 

now as she was telling me this

We both fought back tears 

so she said

She feels safer sleeping outside 

she said

She got raped outside of a certain building and when she asked for help the people in the building not only did they not help her but she said they laughed 

a woman

Shared a little bit of her story with me today

As to why she sleeps outside 

mephibosheth

What do we know about him 

now as to Y

The adoption code was in the border of the birth certificate

Maybe they was trying to hide it.. and me 

not to take anything away

From my biological father

Thank you

Because I would not be here without you 

I don't know

Know Mr. Johnson

Nor the circumstances surrounding the adoption

But thank you for giving me your name 

ma'am/ sir

Thank you for help

Ma'am ma'am especially for letting me know about Mr Johnson's adoption of me 

although the book says

Mornings with Jesus

And I am just reading my Bible

It might of saved me a little heart ache

Had I read it this morning 

LORD

Lord well

So you have addressed my fear

Yesterday and today's reading

I'm scared

But I'm scared of you!

We wrestle not against flesh and blood

Let me let you 

they do have

All the stubs from the beginning yeah

Those ones 

you ladies

Don't even like me and you smiled well ump

And said thank you

That was a red flag 

and frankly

What you are still doing to me 

I sent

A copy of those stubs to the lawyer

So someone else could have a copy

The things that I could not say on my blog

I told what you were doing to somebody

They have a record of it 

wow

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