----

wolverine

Circumference

is that the thing that had the little pencil with the circle thing

I

would be like hell to the no

Sew

it's best that he don't tell me

I'm pretty

sure if God told me what he was doing I would protest

Think

on good things that goes fo y'all too

You betta

hope I find something constructive to do

Ready

ready to pounce on bitch head

I got

enough sugar in me like a 5yr old on a sugar high

I hate

sweets I don't like cookies and cakes bitch

Hey L

no harm no foul we go back deep wife in-law days at the Acapulco drinking hot chocolate

Did Bishop Abney

know Marjorie because Marjorie knew his sister

The

theif got it

And

I did not have no got dam vouchers bitch

Been

going on a lifetime

They are not

the first to try it

Well

there is nothing like being slapped in the face with the fraud

Bitch

did you step behind the counter and ring up yourself

Nothing

from nothing leaves nothing

Do all

customers get a receipt with their name on it

I don't know what I'm going to do

but I can tell you what the fuck I ain't gonna do

And in each ward

there is two commissioner's

There

are 3 wards in Grand Rapids

I don't care

how they left the building hook or crook bitch

I want my

earrings missing about 3 pairs

I think I

can break your hand if enough pain is administered way in the backroom just in case i scream no one can hear me

It's like

liar alert scam alert cheat alert phony alert robber alert hold on to your purse alert a muthafucka might jump out the bushes alert so take yo lying scamming cheating fake Ima rob you and take your purse and throw you in the bush ass on I'd rather see the real authentic you

Who

are you

What is

a straight answer

We in the stedford town

the stedford town

The sky might

be falling

Wait wait

they lie about ev-very thing

The other time that I

didn't speak up I smelt it briefly in a area that I thought unusual well anyway nobody gives a fuck chicken little

When I got to where I was

going and looking in the mirror I could tell I had been breathing it in during the night

Oh oh umh

the first time I smelt the gas I was on my way out the door coming from another area

Lower

My mentality

So I can't

even

Now if I

was slamming cabinets all damn day long well what do you think would of happened by now Yvonne well if it was me you know what I am not that childish

Bitch

you got a open door invite

I'm sure

it happened two times

One of the times

the woman with my same name said she had smelt it but didn't say anything

Both times

the building was evacuated

The two times I did

smell gas and spoke up

Like smelling gas

in the shelter

Or we gonna act

like we don't hear it

Maybe I'm the only

person who hears the cabinet slammer

Like the

lost children of Israel

Or maybe

we have lost our way and we don't know

Which way

is up

Hello

oh

I left the key in the door

but you might have your own

Yep

bitch but I bet you won't come down here right now

So if we on crazy

I'm not on that

I cannot do

your fakeness your falseness

Keep your

bullshit to you

I'm really tired

of steppin and fetchin

What I know

about the Kennedy's the word Camelot like royalty like sweet romance and what I know about Caesar E Chavez I learned from a Richard Pryor movie which way is up

Fighting off

the itis

Y'all could of

told me I left my keys in the door

I'm tired

with a wild imagination

Can I

get those keys please

Ima hold my piece

but damn never a dull moment

Lord

what are you doing today tonight other than the obvious

What I do know about AARP

is that it is for seniors

I

could Google it but you know

I I I

still have yet to sign up for AARP which really in my stupidity I don't know what those letters really mean but I think you can sign up for it at 55????

Well

what is the age well AARP

Some places

consider a 55yr old person a senior

And because I wasn't 60

they told me don't you ever ever ever ever come by here unless I have 4$ and a guest someone member who is 60 years old

Because

once again you have to be 60

Which

was my saving grace

I was in there with

a senior

Well

once again I went into the senior neighbor's

You just sent the email

saying for the second time you cannot process my request after all that time on the phone and the email saying I have been approved

Now I tried

to let it go

I didn't take that survey

because I was taught if you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything

Xfinity

you had me on the phone way too long yesterday

I

kept two quarters for my collection maybe used 7cents of one dollar if given the opportunity I will rectify that situation

But when I was stepping

up to the bed me and my feet 🐾 were thinking a little different so It makes sense to me now as I went to step up I kinda fumdlely steped ... let me read my Bible

When I was at the doctor

the other day and she said that her baby was due the next day I nearly fell out of the chair I was a little surprised

OMG LORD LORD

I am about to read my Bible this morning and I see we talkin about steps so I'm to fall off this stool

Well any way

I couldn't get what was going to get because I only had his couple dollars and my couple dollars and my L's on me oh and my...

In my mind I was fussing at God

Lord it is 6 in the morning dark is it even safe outside at that time of the morning

At 6:00 this morning

I'm on my way to the gas station to spend it and I see the man that I'm suppose to give it to

But when I carried it

around in the pocket for a week and not knowing who to give it to I was either gonna spend it or give it to anybody

Now

when God told me to put a couple dollars in my pocket to give to someone at first I was like ok

That trinket meant

so much that I still have it today

Whatever your name

don't get these kids fucked up for fuckin with a 59 year old lady you tried before

Smoke

king pop

But

we wrestle not against flesh and blood your an assigned demon to that space to do that cabinet slamming thing

I ought to

knock on your door and punch you in the face bitch

Who

wants to get cused the fuck out first

And I

can't hide

Turmoil

inside and outside

And if those places

don't ring a bell ask your Granny

Well if

I say uptown cleaners and Middletons drugstore

So

just like I did not know a about the indigenous people on reservations I did not know about Wards until Hurricane Katrina

It's in the

heart of the city

The elephant is not

in the room

That's what I was

born into

Now I'm pretty sure

I was not suppose to be born I was not suppose to make it out of the womb alive and I know I have been oppressed in my lifetime

Until recently

no joke I thought Indians chose to be on reservations and growing up we didn't stray to far from the neighborhood or you new where not to go

From the list

of people and events seems like by the time I got to elementary school we were reading Dr Martin Luther King I have a dream speech and lots of assemblys I remember Richard Nixon and Watergate and I remember the saying where is Jimmie Hoffa

Never have I ever

saw a documentary with the following names John F Kennedy Bobby Kennedy Martin Luther King Jr Malcom X Stokely Carmichael Eldridge Cleaver Medgar Evers Jimmie Hoffa Ted Kennedy Richard Nixon John Lewis Caesar E Chavez Vietnam war Watts riot Detroit riot Kent State University riot until now I was born in 1964

the socks

Are support socks specifically for my condition 

and when she said that

For some reason it made me think of a woman

Who wore two pair of glasses at the same time

And when I first saw her I thought it strange but

Then I rationalized it like maybe one pair was for near sidedness and the other pair for far sidedness and she couldn't afford one good pair so she wore two pair at the same time 

it would be like

Wearing contact lenses and wearing glasses

At the same time 

so if I

Then add/put a pair of arch support in the shoes 

the Hokas

They have built in arch support 

but the saleswoman

She also said something that really stuck out 

And feelin

like a 59 year old woman today I got a shingles shot so I will act accordingly

I almost

ruined a really good shoe experience

I

had put the other shoe on and was tying it up as she was reaching to guess what to tie it up for me

She

had done slipped the shoe on my feet so graciously tied it up that

I had sat down

to try them on

She

as she was assisting me with the shoes

Wait

I wanted to talk about the saleswoman

Well

because the woman was so helpful I was like telling her I was going to have to stay on that line for the survey and she immediately connected to the survey line I answered the one question and hung up

Man

I didn't know if I was going to be able to do it. One question survey

But now the other day

I took a one question survey

I was a bit

shocked by her calling me I thought my information wasn't disclosed like that

She pretty much

checked me because she said and she had lots of awards in her office she said that reflected....blah blah blah point being she called me right after I took the survey

I will have you know

The bank manager called me right back

And lo and behold

I received a call from the bank

I was asked to

take one of those surveys

A while back

when I was banking in Kentwood

A survey

where they ask all those????s

Now a survey

and Im not talkin bout where you survey land.

The Hokas

are specifically for the things that are wrong with my feet so if that ain't your issue you might need another style of Hokas depending on what's wrong with your feet

Verse you see someone

with a pair of shoes you like you buy them because they looked good on them

As she was educating me

about the shoes I thought back to childhood when you would go in a shoe store and the salesperson would measure your foot and tell you what shoe is best for your feet

A very sales woman

asked if she could help and I explained to her what my condition was and I said something about me liking to walk and the Hokas came up

Well I go to

Gazelle Sports downtown looking for the arch support he recommended.

The podiatrist

recommended foot therapy along with a few other things

I did have another appointment

at another location just in case

I did receive a call from

from the cascade location

Now when I did this

the girl lady on the phone when I told her what was going on her attitude was like well we don't want you to have to pay out of pocket and she said it so many times that I basically hung up

Needless to say I

called my Drs office and they told me to call the podiatrist office and see if I could see another foot doctor in the office

So new

he was not even in the system and if I saw him I would probably have to pay out of pocket

She put me on hold

and came back to the phone and informed me that the doctor podiatrist I was about to schedule this appointment with is new to the practice

Well

when I told her the address she or me had a little dyslexia going on because she got the #s wrong or I mixed them up she decided to call.

Transportation

arranging transportation I called the number on the back of the insurance card

The podiatrists recommendation

Dr Adrianson referred me to the podiatrist there was a slight delay

The baby is due

tomorrow and she was in the office today

Dr Adrianson

whom I saw today Many blessings too her and the baby she carrying.

Well

already feeling my age certainly did not want to be transported in no dag own ambucab thing

Well because I didn't want

to be transported to belding and maybe I could get care closer I had to keep it moving

I was just thinking

my bunions were the issue and because the emergency room recommended that I go to a Podiatrist in Belding with ambulatory referral to get there

Well the day I left the emergency room

I didn't realize how bad my feet were

I might want to know

a little bit more about Saint Nicholas but you done changed his name to Santa Claus

Well damn

Santa got Three names

Precinct

definition #2 definition #2 Ane election district of a city or town

District

A division of an area or geographical unit either created arbitrarily, as for administrative purposes, or existing as a division by virtue of a characteristic to mark off or divide districts, areas, or jurisdiction school district residential district electoral district

it's like walking past

A burning bush and not stopping to see y it's burning 

And if yes

how would you inform the public

If it was a serial killer

on the lose would you inform the public

Hoodwinked

bamboozled are familiar

Well

maybe I Betta look up the word division first just in case

Division

means to divide

Ward

A division of a city or town for administrative and representative purposes

It's all about the Benjamins

I mean the Wit and Wisdom of Benjamin Franklin

We

wards precincts districts

We are going back to

elementary

Volunteer

definition 2. Law. b. A person who holds property under a deed made without valuable consideration well I thought I was a person performing or giving my service of my own free will

Oh

this book mighta came from the other place I like to shop for books oh

Tom Tom Tom

Tomahawk 

we on

Preserve right now 

changing my name

To Little Redbird 

Jumanji

The abyss

The black hole

Pandora's box

I dream of Jeanie

The Jeanie is in the bottle 

the

GINA act 

and if this is a third party

Well who are the first two parties 

is any body

Missin 

from the Xfinity

To the Roku

To the antenna

To the FCC

To the FTC

To the FBI

To the CIA

To the IRS

yes Lord yes

To your will and to your way

That's all I got 

I think we are about

To My second fall

Bout there 

so the

844 number to the IRS is the same as the 616 ....... You are up the street

Get with the city accessor because when I first called pertaining to this letter I was told that the he was looking at my taxes 

Lord please tell me I'm wrong

If there was ever a time I want to be wrong 

you saw the grace of God on my life

And instead of nurturing it you abused it and me 

you all braw beat me so tough

That's why God had me go to another church to be baptized October 16th 2016 

well how to

Proceed 

you mean to tell me

Really

Really 

that was the end of ELNC PREP

I worked at the museum from 2008-2015

My first day at the museum was the day of President Obama's inauguration

ELNC PREP 2012-2014

awe shit

The retreat to Idlewild 

well My pictures

Oh hell no 

oh I mean

Here

tell it hear

It makes no difference to me 

do you want to know who

Ran the program along with Nchecky

FUCK Y'ALL

Keep harassing me

Keep fuckin me over

Keep penalizing me

Keep stealing from

That's y'all fuckin problem

Keep doing what the fuck...

Fill in the blank 

I WORKED AT

ELNC PREP AND THE PUBLIC MUSEUM OF WESTERN MICHIGAN 

Y'ALL BETTA FIX THIS SHIT

Y'ALL KNOW WHAT THE FUCK Y'ALL DID

STOP FUCKIN ME WITH THIS STUPID SHIT

I'M NOT GOING ROUND AND ROUND TRYING TO REACH OUT TO THE FEDS ABOUT A TRANSCRIPT FROM 2015 THEY SAY THE DON'T HAVE IT THEY ARE ONLY TALKING ABOUT 2019 IS THE FURTHEST THEY GO BACK 

2015 City taxes

There is only so many times ima try and get this information 

and

All that glitters 

this gentle man

My point is not to judge the book by the cover

Nor the diamond by the dullness 

although we do have imposters

People who pretend to be homeless and go home at the end of the night

his intelligence

Overshadowed everything 

I met a really intelligent man yesterday

He was disguised as a homeless person 

I went to check out

The rims because there was a game being played 

by the

Fullers field under the highway by the basketball hoop the new ones

about that ring

The one I found in the park 

but do you have

The power/authority to take my life 

you can do alot

You can come close

the vote

The vote

The vote

The vote 

Happy Birthday

Belated to our current PRESIDENT and may God bless you with many more

You are a inspiration for many

p.s.

Thanks for your leadership 

it's two ways

In this bitch 

some jobs

Are so called inside jobs because they could only be done from the inside 

well I suppose

If my internal bleeding was close to the ear

So the closest exit to the wound 

This daze

trajectory has went another way than what I expected

I checked

My pictures I see what was going on at that time

Pertaining to

that year

Did you

give me the envelope

I checked with

the state

It was like a

ritual

Another word

transubstantiationalist

Word of the day

transubstantiation

Happy

Veterans Day

I can't right now

I have to focus on my health

And is

she any kin to Mr Johnson my adoptive father

i

Played two numbers today

Four digits 

thank you Lord

For the double rainbow this morning 

ok

Couch died

Marjorie would have a break down

And Mr Johnson adopted me

Gave me his last name 

ok stupid bitch

Are they paying you or you doing it for free 

Grace means

God's Divine Influence

Called so because it is derived from the free and undeserved communication of God toward an individual of his own choosing 

yeah

I'm wearing Dr Scholl's shoes with Dr scholl inserts with toe spacers until I get to one of them recommend stores 

y'all Betta cut that out

Like a cut out doll

Like a  cut out pattern

Stop playin 

and I got

3 new prescription 

you probably

Can't tell I have these issues just by looking at me

Huh 

O

But you can't see my stomach issues

My back pain

Or my collapsed feet

will take my

Time with them 15 pounds considering my stomach issues

so excuse me while

I'm hunting and gathering with my bad feet 

I lost

Everything I owned in a storage unit 

and if I'm

15 pounds under weight what do you think I'm gonna do

How do you think I'm suppose to put weight on 

we haven't

Gotten to the spine doctor yet 

and

We know they bad 

we gonna get

To the bunions 

okay well

The very shoes 👟 I was wearing to give me the support I needed may have been the very shoes 👟 that helped with the collapsing of my feet

Mephibosheth 

but

Any way that story made me think about shoes

now he says

In the book that he didn't know if that story was real 

now I got to

Go to the specialty shoe store 

I mean

Give away these $200 shoes 👟

sell

These name brand $200 shoes 

I

Mean 

why would you

Donate 

now let's replace

Those 📏📐 rulers and insert shoes 👟

do we destroy

These bad rulers or sell them to the discount store at a discounted price 

well now on the backside of that story

The manufacturer of the ruler 

when she called

The flaw to the attention of the teacher

The teacher told her next time tell her parents not to shop at the discounted store 

after this goes on

For some time a student notices a flaw in the ruler that came from the discount store 

now the kids take a

Test in school using their 📏📐 rulers and the kids whose parents got their 📏📐 rulers from discount store been failing several test 

the parents

Now have to get a ruler 📏 for the child

Some parents shop at discount store A

Some parents shop at not a discount store

Pay a little more for the ruler 📐

the story was about

A ruler that a student in middle school might need for an assignment 

so I was

Read a book and was telling someone one of the stories in the book

sorry

I have been walking

Down to the library because they have books for sell for .25 

a quarter

Twenty five cents 

now

Bare with me 

now I have been wearing a

Pair of shoes that I thought were good for my feet and walking name brand pair... expensive from what they tell me 

but we gonna get to them

But first we have to start with the collapsing of my feet inward and arches and the heels of my feet... physical therapy

For my feet 

well we

He really wasn't concerned about those 

finally made it to

The foot doctor today 

For the emergency room visit for the bunions 

I think

I came thru like 911 in white neighborhoods

Oh

that's not 8 months

Like the bottoms

in Sparta Mississippi in the Heat of the Night bottoms shit

I come from the

bottom

And God had to remind me of

where I'm from how where I grew up

I never

thought I would be at a homeless shelter But God has made a believer out of me

I

am gonna read the Bible right now My daily devotion it's still mornin

I started crying that day

on the street walking and felt like any thing could happen to me out in these streets and nobody would know

But I felt like

if I was the only person who saw that it made me feel so alone

It was something strange

it happened quick

And

saw something strange happen

To find someone or

something encouraging

So after I started working in the bakery

I spent a lot more time outside

I tried to say that

during the grand opening interview I did it come out that way

When I started working at the shelter

in the bakery and living there in the shelter was very hard for me

A low point

it was

A high point for

well what was encouraging to was to know that Levine Benjamin was fighting my case

It's hard not to give up

if you have been in that situation for a long period of time

But now realize

when someone has been unhoused for two years fours years or more it might not be unusual

I'm not pointing a finger

at anyone

Time

time time there is Gods time and there is the time by which we go by

Talking about this

helps me to get it out of my system because all of this is a part of what is inside of me making me sick

Firstly I blogged

about my time at the shelter so we just gonna keep it moving in interest of time

So I was at the

shelter for 8 months

And my response to

him was I had filed a claim against them with the Michigan Department of Civil Rights I mean you know that part

During the emails

with Jacques G the Housing commission came up as another resource

The "Homeless" system

which means in order to become recognized as a homeless person you you have to go through the shelters

Even though I knew

how long I have been homeless

So when I

was in the shelter I was told that I was not a chronically homeless person

I'm talking about

chronically over a period of time

Going back to the word

chronic and I'm not talking about weed

Between the time

he he told me and my arrival at the shelter was a bit delayed I made it there

And my first day at the shelter

was December 31st 2022 New Year's Eve

Well Jacques G

I took your advice

And I began to

have health challenges

Well instead of going to the shelter

at that time I tried to work a little harder

Now that was back on

5-6-2020

And I believe my

last email to him was yes those places that he recommended was fine if I wanted the corona virus

Well

chronic homeless HAP degage ministries mel trotter

These words came up

in the email

Yesterday

I saw back in 5-6-2020 six emails between me and a Jacques G

I stayed

in hotels I stayed with others I even asked my then Doctor at that time

After I left Charles Street

I tried everything I could to find another place to live

I'm short on words

so I'm just gonna say no secret I have been homeless since I left Charles street

So I log in to my chart to read

the letter but click on messages instead

Basically the test was fine

I have to basically stop smoking cigarettes

I recently had a test done

and my doctor put a letter in my chart in regards to the results

We

gonna back up

Ok

so yesterday I got the name wrong

Thank you Lord

for referring me back to my My old doctor's office. The history. OMG emails with Julius

Now I don't know what

that means other than the obvious because I know that that was the very reason I shut down the ancestry account down

Matter of fact

I saw someone who shares my biological fathers last name today

But I was

linked to people who have my biological father's last name

Until one day

I realized that although I had all the information the DNA was not matching although I was able to see other people that had family trees had the same people that I had on my tree

I was building a family tree

I was gathering information from the census Google located the house in Louisiana New Orleans and I was on a role

I never

had information about "my father's" so I put in what I thought I knew about my mother

I had took a DNA test

I put in my family tree

Ancestry

it was something about the bloodline that made me shut it down

And what was

crazier was to see the code it was something there

It seemed

kinda crazy to think to do something like that a magnifying glass

Was it just last

yearish I was looking at the birth certificate with a magnifying glass and found the adoption code in the border of the birth certificate

Before 2016

I had never saw my birth certificate

The middle phone

was the phone that was left on the bus I did locate It I blogged about I ended up throwing it away like a burner phone in a trash can because you said it wouldn't charge

Sometimes I choose

not to import export

Going back to 3

phones ago to the government phone to the device I have now well I still have the 3rd phone back

At what point did you decide

to sell your soul to the devil

Ain't that what

the girl called you in the meeting punk

You left

your scent behind punk

Those

are heavy hitters big wigs

The

federal trade commission

The

office of the controller

This situation

I don't know what else to do I don't know who else to call I don't know what else to say

I have

been crying for the better part of last night and today

OMG

O MY GOD O MY GOD LORD YOU OR BUST you checked me today in my daily devotional about my belief system 5 minutes after I said to someone that I was struggling with pretty much believing in God LORD I BELIEVE

Well

because of the adoption

Is

, Donald Trump behind this shit too

The

Federal trade commission

Somebody

know something

I'm sick of it

make it stop I'm tired

Fraud

please get to the bottom of it

we

Quiet 

I guess

poet justice works if that's all I can get

I KNOW

I finally get it I now know why you made my life a living hell and wished for me to die I know your cover-up your corruption your scandal I know how I was treated I know how I was mishandled I now know it's nothing I've done I know it's you you are the one I know your secrets I know how you lied I know what you did I know how you spied On me like I am a criminal I hope you get life or at least the minimal yeah I finally get it and I got you to

Y'all

treated me so bad... I'm writing a poem about it

And thanks

to the Judge for listening, hearing me, and acknowledging that I was heard.

Thank you

Levine Benjamin Lauren Cojei for winning my disability claim it meant alot to me knowing that you were fighting for me when I couldn't fight for myself

And

I thought it was Chris that everybody hated No Everybody hates Yvonne

Nov 16

2022 I posted about a paper I wrote at cornerstone in regards to ELNC PREP

ELNC PREP

I know a little bit about that

I

have appointments coming up New Doc Old Doc office rerouting

Well

since one of the side effects is death hopefully the ones that I do have gets better IDK

suffering

From side effects of medication

So now I'm in pain

Because I can't take the medicine 

in the

Vicinity of our conversation 

word on the street

There was another victim of the same fate 

and as the woman

Shared her story with me yesterday 

and

If that is the only language bitches

That you understand

Then let's take it there 

so

Y'all better figure it the fuck out 

to

Many more days like today

Ain't gonna be

nobody

Gives a fuck

Translation

Nobody cares

.

Bitch 

I have met

A lot of strong women out in these streets 

at that time I

Didn't understand but today I get it 

and her reason

For sleeping outside was because she was bullied in the shelter 

she asked me for a ride

I gave her a ride to a church where she slept outside on the steps of a church. 

I met a woman a while back

Name Janice and to make a long story short I couldn't tell it by looking at her she was homeless 

and that's

Ok to

I

Got nothing 

and as a

House warming departure gift

and I felt like

If I told you who helped me

You would go behind my back and try and undo that help 

and when I did get help

You yelled at me again demanding that I tell you who helped me 

none of it

Is funny 

cruel

Cruelty 

so yes

I can relate to her story 

I'm sure the woman

On the other end of the phone heard how you were yelling at me 

and when I called

That same place that I had already called and you told me to go from your office 

and when I told you that

I had already called you told me to go in person 

one place

I had already called 

you not only did not help

You told me to go to 3 other organizations and ask them for help 

and the day we sat down

And I thought I was going to receive help you not only did not help me you double down with a story about staff members and patrons said something about me being or doing what I'm still not clear 

you had an opportunity

To help me move out of the shelter

But you didn't help 

when you as my employer

Has emergency relief funds for your employees

Which I am one of at this moment

And I was told about this fund by the housing advocate 

I could relate

Her story on many levels I myself have been raped before in my life 

And to ask for help and have a closed door in the face 

now as she was telling me this

We both fought back tears 

so she said

She feels safer sleeping outside 

she said

She got raped outside of a certain building and when she asked for help the people in the building not only did they not help her but she said they laughed 

a woman

Shared a little bit of her story with me today

As to why she sleeps outside 

mephibosheth

What do we know about him 

now as to Y

The adoption code was in the border of the birth certificate

Maybe they was trying to hide it.. and me 

not to take anything away

From my biological father

Thank you

Because I would not be here without you 

I don't know

Know Mr. Johnson

Nor the circumstances surrounding the adoption

But thank you for giving me your name 

ma'am/ sir

Thank you for help

Ma'am ma'am especially for letting me know about Mr Johnson's adoption of me 

although the book says

Mornings with Jesus

And I am just reading my Bible

It might of saved me a little heart ache

Had I read it this morning 

LORD

Lord well

So you have addressed my fear

Yesterday and today's reading

I'm scared

But I'm scared of you!

We wrestle not against flesh and blood

Let me let you 

they do have

All the stubs from the beginning yeah

Those ones 

you ladies

Don't even like me and you smiled well ump

And said thank you

That was a red flag 

and frankly

What you are still doing to me 

I sent

A copy of those stubs to the lawyer

So someone else could have a copy

The things that I could not say on my blog

I told what you were doing to somebody

They have a record of it 

wow

Ump ump ump 

healing

Is still in progress

I still feel the remnants of the last storm I been thru and I'm not talking about the one in the store 

well

There are those books that I like to read

Some of do say they from Harvard 

Jesus

Calmed that storm and went back to sleep 

when he said that

It tickled me but

I thought about the disciples on the boat in the middle of the storm while Jesus was sleeping 

well today after seeing the damage

I texted my son about the kids being out of school because of the power outage from the storm

He says to me

Moma you must of been the only person not phased by that storm 

Not that I was not phased

middle of the Storm middle of the store

We stayed in the store people was leaving people was standing in the middle of the store on they phones checking I would walk away from the middle of the store grab something come back ask my son for an update and he was like it's tornado warning it's not good

The storm passed and we were on our way.

I also got

Got caught in the storm at Walmart with my son

WalMart announced over the loud speaker that it was a tornado warning and we could leave or go to the middle of the store 

I got for my birthday

Some aspercreme

Some salonpas

Icy hot

Foot wrap

Lol  

I'm still here

Thanks Lord 

Public Service Announcement

Coming out of Michigan Department of Civil Rights in regards to Hate Hatred Hating a person

Because of

Race

Sexual orientation

Religion 

harassment

Stalking 

Deliver

Me from evil 

ohh

It's on 

stand

Up to cancer on ABC

Lord where you lead me

Although you do be having me in some crazy situations

Ima still follow your lead

Jesus 

God willing

Next week I will be 59 

Well I just got kicked out of senior neighbors because I'm still to young lol

You gotta be 60 😂

because I didn't plan

On living past 40 

.. I was pretty bad growing up

But 

it was filled

At the Cancer Hemoglobin Center Trinity Health

Why there only God knows 

I know I had a mass removed from belly over a year ago and it was benign

It could of went the other way

Praying some ones cancer goes into remission 

And if you have a blood disease that whatever you are lacking begins to form

In Jesus name

Amen 

where I picked it up

out of all the places it could of been filled 

for the bunions

I have been on my feet alot these past few months 

I just picked up

My prescription from my emergency room visit 

Giving Honor

To God who is the head of my life 

am I gonna ever

Get a chance to testify...

About my testimony 

and thank you

For not putting me in another awkward position 

Lord thank you

For every authentic and encouraging person you have sent my way 

healing

Healing in progress 

well LORD

You had another plan this morning

ima be

Uh well at a radio station tomorrow morning 

I have waited

for a long time for answer that will never come and weight broke the wagon

Things

are changing overnight is your gotdam office even open yes no maybe so

New move

passing out in the streets is already taken

I ended up

on Charles Street because my x sold marijuana at the time back in the day and our apartment got raided we went to jail i was pregnant at the time. we had to move his mom and stepdad worked at the housing commission and told us about a home ownership program

I have requested

to be buried at wounded knee yeah ain't that is where the Indians are buried yes me and the bible

Business

as usual

That's

what you been doing

Bury

the truth

since no one cares

About the bible bury it with me 

the only thing

Left is for me to pass out and die

Since I can't get a hole in a wall might as well have one in the ground 

Plus

the other stuff you stole

You steal

hair get and perfume we already know the theif in the room clepto

Plus

the missing blog

And

657 post later

well I have not

Had a place of my on since Charles st. LORD

isn't Katie

The woman from the fund raiser video 

do you

Even know 

does Katie

Know the history of the Verne Barry 

how many times

Have you given a patron your meal 

how many times have you

Shorted a cigarette 

how many times

Have you traded a cigarette for a bus pass 

how many times have you given a patron

A cigarette for a voucher 

where is

Ms Ronnie 

hm

Wonder who's doing all them logos 

the thrift

Logo

if you have bread

And I'm hungry today

Don't tell me you can help me tomorrow

Bitch 

for every crazy bitch

I should at least see five "normal mothafucks"

it must

Be a time to kill 

someone

Traded it for a short 

one thing I know

Is that that crane will not move without the operator 

what's considered

The heartside district 

if eva

Was a nigga 

and I'm

Up to my head in it 

I guess I'm

Worthless

you

Crazy number one bitches

Betta figure it out 

bitch

I reported you 

Indian trail

Bus driver musta been a trump fan

bitches

Will die today 

Just saying 

this is

Not a game not funny not Hollywood 

actually

Huh

I just got a word 

Damned if

I do or don't

It's the 4th

9:30 is to late and I work there

I called degage to say I would be late

like I'm suppose to do and was told that huh what

And y

can't I where white on labor day

Y

steam don't come up from where it's suppose to

Y

cars gotta cut off at the stop signs and the stop lights

Y

can't I Walk up the blue steps

being harassed

Right now by staff 

nothing like

A shelter rat

Any crumb a do 

FAM

Real fam out here today 

I've heard someones voice

She can speak

Whwhat 

inspired

By these young volunteers in the degage kitchen today 

I'm just homeless woman

2902 and since no one sees me as a person I am reduced to that number 

give me a

Moment bitches 

Truly

like stick em up

Y'all holding me up

I mean damn I've done everything asked of me Lord

Giving up

on the truth it can't never be told

you can fix it

Or we wrecking shit from here to kingdom come 

oh

O

attention people

Please mind your own business and be so busy minded your own business that you don't have time to worry about what I am doing 

a wrap

Is it a hair style

A sandwich

Or are we gonna wrap this shit up 

The best

Alley ever 

two things

On my credit report both progressive being disputed the rest is student loans nick pick me about everything while others get away with highway robbery and murder

It must be nice 

for

A $60 application fee you should do more than just take My money and the application I can't even look at the apartment 

I am

Not a believer lord

the hoka

Oh they gone 

the movie

While you were sleeping is another one of my favorite movies 😁

I ran

Across the definition of grace the other day huh

emphasis

Not what you say but how 

white privilege

You get to steal 

thieving

Bitches I have a funeral to go to 

my pants

Were stolen from off My bed

Karl won't check the camera 

yes

I did go down there 

thank you

Catholic Central High School

Lunch was great 

degage staff

Jodi was questioning me in regards to the key I have to the door?

congratulations

To the class of 2023

change

May not be negative but hard

the shelter

Like myself

Is going thru changes